A moment of truth.

So I participated in my first staged reading yesterday… and what an experience it was! From working with a fabulous cast and a fantastic director to having so much faith and support from the producer, I seriously learned so much from everyone and am feeling super blessed to have been part of something pretty fucking special. That’s right. All Asian American. Female. Reservoir Dogs.

I had the honor of playing Freddy Newandkye aka Mr. Orange. When DC Wolfe told me that he wanted me in that role, I was like “Omg, wow. Are you sure?!” But I guess it was actually kind of perfect, cuz’ everyone else on the cast had a theater background while I didn’t, so I really felt like I needed to step up my game in order to fit in 😛

This was definitely a moment of truth for me:

After our last rehearsal the day before the reading, our director, West Liang, stayed with me to work on this monologue. It was actually his suggestion that I get off book for the last portion. “You don’t have to do this, but it would be really sexy if you just dropped your script and delivered this last part to the audience.” I looked over it real quick and then said, “Yes, I’ll do it!” Oh man. On the way to this monologue, I flubbed a couple of words here and there. I even thought I would seriously piss my pants, but when it came down to it, I was Freddy and ready ;]


Special thanks to my agent, Kylie MacKenzie, for taking these photos!

It was also so much fun to play with Tamlyn Tomita. When I first learned that I would be working mostly with her, I kind of freaked out. We’d actually worked together before on a TV pilot called My Life Disoriented, but that was over 10 years ago and I was working as an assistant camera on that show. A decade later and where I’m at in my acting journey, to be able to share the stage with Tamlyn has definitely been an honor and a huge milestone for me.

I am so thankful to DC for believing in me, to West for really working with me, to all the ladies (Tamlyn, Jolene, Rosie, Sharon, Jully, and Elaine) for being so giving, to Aaron for being awesome and on top of those cues, to Kane for coming in super last minute to tape the reading, and to everyone who came out on a Sunday afternoon to watch and support! Thank you <3

How I Became a Dog Lady

Last year in April, I downloaded an app called AllPaws. It’s like Tinder, but for finding adoptable dogs near you. I guess you could say I was bored with actual Tinder and decided to look for a different kind of mate 😛

So while I was swiping through profiles, a little lady named Matilda caught my eye. Without thinking too much, I filled out an adoption application for her. Soon after, Adopt Me Rescue contacted me to set up a time to meet.

When we first met, it took Matilda two hours (in which she had to be forcefully encouraged) to come near me. She was extremely skittish and clearly had deep trust issues. I learned that when she was rescued, she’d been living in a car for four years with a homeless couple and had signs of physical abuse. For her to not attack me was actually huge progress as she’d been in foster care for awhile.

Having had some time to think about it and also not really connecting with Matilda right away, I realized I wasn’t exactly in the best place to commit to a dog mate. However, it just so happened that Matilda needed a new foster home. I’d already been dog sitting for several of my friends and was used to having dogs in and out of my place, so why not foster her?

The first night that Matilda arrived, she wouldn’t come out of her crate and I didn’t want to force her. Eventually, I carried her crate to my room and while I was getting ready for bed, she decided to come out! She was the cutest little thing and seemed to be curious about me. She had this side tilt to her head (possibly from the abuse), so she kind of walked a little lopsided towards me and then got on her hind legs to paw at me. “Well, hello there, Matilda!”

From that point on, Matilda was sweet to me. She would curl up in a ball and sleep next to my head, greet me at the door, and follow me around like a little shadow peering at me with those curious eyes of hers. While she was mostly an angel at home, there were certain things that would trigger the wild animal in her, like crossing paths with other small dogs on walks. She also really did not like men. One time, David Choi came over to hang out and she pounced on him and seriously attacked him. Oi vey. I definitely acquired some battle scars having to hold her back a couple of times. Cuz’ when this girl got the wild eyes, she would be out for blood! I guess you could say the streets had made her tough and what she really needed was just a lot of TLC.

Anyway, long story short, I felt like I got to see the beginnings of a transformed dog. She learned to chill out a bit when it came to other dogs and meeting new people. And after three weeks with me, she was adopted by a lovely woman and given a new name: Tilly. Yesterday, I received this photo of Tilly and it was just such a blessing to hear how well she’s doing a year later:

Doesn’t she look so happy and healthy? 🙂

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LAAPFF 2016

The 32nd Los Angeles Asian Pacific Film Festival came and went by so quickly! Here are my highlights!

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Getting inspired by Jodi Long’s Opening Night speech.

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Laughing, crying, and smiling throughout The Tiger Hunter.

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Stalking Tanuj Chopra.


Hating on Big Phony a few times throughout the festival.


Escorting Karin Anna Cheung to the unexpectedly funny The Unbidden.


Watching friends in films.


Catching up with some of my fave film festival peeps.

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Forming a new dance crew with Jenny Yang and Anthony Ma.

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Mistaking the dude in front of me for Patrick Epino (three dudes to my left).


And hosting fellow actress and Asian CineVision’s Festival Director, Judy Lei, who gets special thanks for hooking it up with Opening and Closing Nights. Good times, good times. Until next year, let’s create our own opportunities as Jodi Long would say! And maybe I’LL have a film in the fest next year! ;D

P.S. – A Sung Kang sighting is always a highlight.

Ride or Die

The last time I wrote a reflection blog was exactly three years ago: 2012. Hindsight is always 20/20. That blog was inspired by the previous year’s reflection. So why didn’t I write on December 31st, 2013 or 2014?

If you look at #12 of what I wrote on the last reflection blog, I was in a place of healing. Long story short, 2013 and 2014 were both a part of that process and I was definitely in a completely different mindset. In 2013, not only was I healing emotionally and spiritually, I was also healing from a severe case of shingles that broke out on the right side of my face. It was a pretty dark time for me which involved a lot of isolation and depression. After getting out of my hermit shell, I went into 2014 with a bit of an “I don’t give a f*ck” attitude. I got into a relationship that wasn’t right for me, started drinking heavily, and kind of lost myself.

On July 9th, 2014, a pastor I knew from Taiwan passed away suddenly. I attended his “Celebration of Life” service and this deep stirring started happening in me. I was being reminded of who God had called me to be. At the same time, I was still with this person that wasn’t right for me and I started to have this heaviness on my heart that needed to be released. Just a few weeks after that, the relationship ended and God was there for me through it all. Even when I wasn’t exactly there for Him. That’s actually how I got saved in the first place, ten years ago on September 11th, 2005, but that’s another story. Anyway, mid-2014 was a very transitional time for me. It involved a lot of purging and refocusing. As a matter of fact, I disconnected from all of social media (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc.) for the last four months of the year in order to reconnect with people who mattered. It was a time that I truly discovered who my real friends were and had my family (both biological and spiritual) to lean on.

2015 was truly a new year for me. I shed a lot of old skin. And quite literally, too, with the scarring from the shingles. In the tradition of the former reflection posts, I shall list 15 highlights of this year:

1. I started dreaming vividly again.
2. I got back into a Bible study with an amazing group of women.
3. I hosted “FOBluck Tuesdays” for season 1 of Fresh Off the Boat (potluck + FOTB… get it?).
4. I started studying with Joe Anthony after having taken a hiatus from acting classes for over a year. His class started challenging me in new ways and has definitely been stretching me. There’s still a lot of work to be done here.
5. In March, I started collaborating with a very unique group of individuals on a pretty awesome creative project that could only be put together by God.
6. During pilot season, I went out for a lot of amazing opportunities. I may not have booked anything, but I definitely had a lot of fun auditioning.
7. Several divine encounters happened with people that were all so intertwined that I’m just in awe of how God can connect the dots.
8. In April, I started speaking with a therapist on almost a weekly basis. She has helped me immensely in seeing the real me more clearly.
9. Also, in April, I started fostering rescue dogs on top of the dog sitting I had already been doing. My place actually became quite the revolving door for different dogs for awhile.
10. In September, I met MY dog, Moki. They say that the dog chooses you… and in short, that’s what happened. She was rescued from an illegal backyard breeder. Within a week of fostering her, I knew she was my dogmate. Three weeks later, when I took her to the clinic to get spayed, I found out she was pregnant with at least three puppies.
11. On October 19th, Moki had FIVE puppies. Five is the number for grace and I kid you not, the fifth born, little MoMo, has a CROSS on his chest.
12. Out of yet another divine encounter, I was led to a new Bible study where once again, dots continue to be connected.
13. In October, I booked a major commercial, joined SAG-AFTRA, and booked my first Co-Star on a major TV show.
14. On December 1st, my niece, Audrey, was born.
15. A few days later, I was arrested for a DUI.

In summary, this was an extremely fruitful year in terms of meaningful relationships and new experiences that I’m incredibly thankful for. Some of you may be wondering how #15 is a highlight. Well, as weird as this might sound, I thought that being arrested and spending the night in jail was actually a really good experience. Aside from that, I completely saw God’s hand in the whole thing as soon as I sobered up. I won’t get into the details now and it’s obviously something that’s still in progress. But I will share with you a big revelation I had from this experience: If driving is a privilege in our society, driving in the Kingdom of God is a major privilege and the keys can be taken away at any time. Whether you believe in God or not, you can’t deny I’ve been pretty blessed or fortunate this year. And going back to who God has called me to be… well, drinking like a fool definitely ain’t part of the picture. #15 may have very well saved my own life and the lives of others.

There’s much more that I could go on and on about, but I actually need to wrap this up as I’m already running late to a NYE gathering. So guys and gals who have actually read all of this… wow, thanks for “listening.” I just felt like I NEEDED to write this blog. It’s probably the most free-flowing blog I’ve ever written where I’m not actually going back to edit and censor the hell out of myself as I’ve done many times in the past.

Anyway, on December 31st, 2015, I’m definitely taking a real hard look at myself with all my blessings and all my flaws. For 2016, I think God just wants me to sit in the passenger seat and be his ride or die. It’s not a bad place to be.

So *cheers* with my imaginary glass of champagne. I pray that you all have an amazing 2016 full of blessings and truth.

‘Dr. Ken’ is gonna be paying y’all a house call soon!

So be prepared, y’all. Be prepared. ABC’s new show Dr. Ken is about to prescribe you some good ol’ hearty laughter. The show stars real life doctor turned actor/comedian Ken Jeong, Suzy Nakamura, Krista Marie Yu, Albert Tsai, Tisha Campbell-Martin, Jonathan Slavin, Kate Simses, and Dave Foley. This show is gonna be legit or as Ken would say, “on fleek!” And trust me, I know. I’ve been going to the live tapings and laughing my ass off every time.

As an avid supporter of Asian Americans in media for over a decade, I’m THRILLED about this time we’re living in with Dr. Ken, Fresh Off the Boat, and ‘All the Asians on TV’ this Fall. So when I was invited to visit the set of Dr. Ken a few weeks ago, it was pretty awesome to hear Ken’s heart and vision for the show along with the entire cast acknowledging the show’s significance for the Asian American community and their 100% effort to make this show the best show it can be. Michael Aushenker of the Palisadian-Post has a nice write up with quotes from our set visit: ‘Ken Jeong: Man on a Wire.’


This was a fun day. Thank you, ‘Dr Ken,’ ABC, and Sony!

If you’re in LA, they actually still have half a season left of tapings and YOU can be part of the live audience! Free tickets are available on tvtickets.com. For the rest of you, tune in or set your DVR! I can’t wait for you guys to watch this show!

Dr. Ken premieres next Friday, October 2nd at 8:30/7:30c on ABC.

Worth

Last week, I had the pleasure of being photographed and interviewed by the talented Kassia Phoy for a personal project of hers where she asked the question, “Where do you get your worth from?”

The photo series + compilation of sound bytes was on exhibit at Sovereign Grace‘s new quarterly event, Paradigm Cafe. The theme of the night? Worth.

Pictured (from left to right): Kassia pictured with my picture, peek-a-boo CL, and Tiffany Lynn Ingro and I trying to look distant yet adjacent to our photos.

Melly Lee‘s self portrait series was also on exhibit. These are a few of my favorites:

Along with the photo exhibits, the event also consisted of testimony sharing by Arden Cho, spoken word by Jacqulyn Whang, a sneak peek at the Jubilee Project’s “Save My Seoul” documentary, and a musical performance by Ruth Cho. There was also free coffee provided by Cafe Dulce. All in all, it was an uplifting time.

After the event, a couple of us ended up at The Pie Hole for a late night dinner. It was highly recommended that I get the Maple Custard pie…

Pie for dinner? Yes. Was it worth it? Yes.

2012. Hindsight is always 20/20.

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Exactly one year ago, I took the time to reflect on 2011, so to continue the tradition, here’s a little recap of 2012’s highlights for me~

1. I got to fulfill my dream (and begin my career) of voice acting!
2. Linsanity happened.
3. Got LASIK which has been life changing!
4. Won a pair of tickets from Asiana Airlines thanks to many of you. In case you’re wondering, I ended up giving them to my parents.
5. Booked my first TV pilot! There were def a lot of good stepping stones with the career this year.
6. PSY happened.
7. Made the switch from Blackberry to iPhone. I have to say, this was also life changing LOL.
8. Embarked on a 90 day challenge/Sabbatical. Got a lot more fit and well-rested. However, it was and still has been a struggle. This journey continues.
9. Became tight with the Jubilee Project. I am a Jubileever for life.
10. Had an awesome time living on my own, but ended up finding an amazing home to live in and share with one of my best friends.
11. Started to stop stopping myself and began doing what I said I would do. This is still a work in progress.
12. My blog from a year ago was written with a heart that was still being mended. Since then, my heart has definitely gone through a lot of healing and to be completely honest, my heart still has a lot to go through. I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be though- and I think it’s a good place.

Once again, I was very blessed in 2012. If the world had ended this year, I would’ve been satisfied*. But obviously, God has something more planned for both you and me. Besides Lin-PSY-nity, 2012 was a very blooming year with career, friendships, and personal growth. I know that there is still so much more to learn and experience, so I’m excited for 2013! *cheers* to you all and Happy New Year!

*EDIT (1/1/13 12:50P)- Actually, I lied, if the world had ended, I would NOT have been satisfied. I would’ve been thankful for everything that had happened to me in my life thus far, but there is definitely still a lot more to do~ so 2013, let’s go!

90 Day Challenge

For the last several years, I had told myself that I wanted to be in the best shape of my life before turning 30. However, I made very feeble steps to achieve that. In fact, I had been so sedentary for so long that when I first attempted to work out after 8 years of not exercising, I literally almost had a heart attack. Also, having dealt with health issues in the past few years and becoming really unhappy and drained from sitting in front of the computer all the time, I was definitely feeling a need for a drastic lifestyle change.

By God’s perfect timing, an opportunity came about to make this happen and I’ve committed to 90 days of transforming my lifestyle. For the last month, I’ve been living down in the OC, working out three times a week with my personal trainer/lifestyle coach friend, Cary Hokama, and eating lean protein and green veggies while cutting processed foods, sugar, and carbs. That’s the base of what I’ve been doing. On top of that, I’ve been doing my own cardio 1-2 days outside of training, taking time to get some proper rest, enjoying leisurely time, and just getting focused on what’s important. It’s definitely been a very blessed time, but I ain’t gonna lie- it hasn’t been easy!


Day 0 – getting a little test run with Cary before committing to 90 days.

Some of my fitness goals during these 90 days include: achieving that “sexy line” that fit females have going down the middle of their abs. I have NEVER had this in my life. Shoot, I have never had nice abs. Ever. So yes, I will have nice abs by the end of the 90 days. Secondly, I want to be able to do ONE pull up by the end of the 90 days. Just one! I also want to defeat diabetes. The last time I visited my doctor, my blood sugar levels indicated that I was pre-diabetic. This is no joke, cuz’ diabetes definitely runs in my family. Lastly, I want the discipline and mentality it takes to sustain a healthy lifestyle moving forward. I don’t want to go backwards at all when I’m done with this- no way. I want to be transformed in a way that empowers every aspect of my life not just with working out and eating, but with the way I am. Trust me, I have a lot more goals than these fitness ones, but that’s a whole ‘nother blog.

So here I am! Day 30 has just passed. I’d say I’m doing quite well so far. The best thing about this journey is that everyday I AM in the best shape of my life and I’m definitely thankful for that. Before and after pics? Yes, just wait for them… 😛

Follow the process on Facebook: 90 Day Challenge | SuperFoodbook

iPhone 5 is revolutionizing my life.

Or it’s just killing more of my time. Haha. But seriously, this is the first time I’m ever blogging from my phone and I am pretty stoked. I haven’t owned a laptop for years nor have I had the luxury of a tablet… I’m also coming from BlackBerry world, so having my new iPhone has been a blast so far.

For those who know me, you know I’m one of those Asians that like taking pictures of my food. Even though my BlackBerry camera was super sucky, I still religiously took photos of almost every meal in the last year. And now… iPhone is changing up my game. Haha.

Anyway, there’s still so much more for me to learn about this phone and it seems like there’s an endless plethora of apps. Which btw, being new to iPhone, I welcome app suggestions 🙂

Reflection: Early Years

I was prompted to rewrite my bio today… and somehow I started writing a novel of an autobiography~ lol. This is what I have so far:

I was born on March 20, 1983 in Knoxville, TN. My parents came from Taiwan so that my father could acquire a Masters degree in Food Science at the University of Tennessee, Knoxville. According to my dad, he fell in love with this country within the first week of being here after his housemates took him around for some sight seeing. He loved the wide open spaces and abundance of fishing.

Because of his new found love, he decided he wanted to stay in the States instead of returning to Taiwan to work. The people around him told him that Computer Science was the ticket to stay. He ended up visiting the Dean of Computer Science at his school which whom he struck a deal to audit classes. His acceptance into the program would depend on how he did on the exams. My dad aced them.

My parents were very hard working. While my father earned his degree in Computer Science, my mother took night classes to improve her English and develop job skills. They both worked at a Chinese restaurant to pay the bills. After my dad graduated, my family moved a lot due to my father’s career. We were on the east coast for a little bit, then my younger brother was born in Sacramento, CA in 1985. After that, we moved a few times within Silicon Valley where we eventually ended up in Cupertino, CA, home of Apple Computers.

Growing up in Cupertino, I always felt that I lived in a “Truman Show type bubble.” I always felt that there had to be more to life than what I knew in this little suburban city. My brother and I were latchkey kids. Although we played together as young children, by the time I was in junior high, we did our own things. Also, our parents were strict about us hanging out with friends, so we didn’t go out very much.

Therefore, I had a lot of time to myself. I pondered the existence of God, I thought a lot about life and its meaning, and I found ways to entertain myself (i.e. radio talk shows with my stuffed animals). During this time, I also discovered a hobby in making websites, chatting on AOL, and joining online social networks. I published my first website circa 1996 on GeoCities (prior to that, I had made a “website” on my dad’s company’s Intranet circa 1994). Since I was the only one amongst my peers doing this, everyone who knew about it thought it was cool. Shoot. I was a pioneer back then.

In high school, I continued to build websites. I would code everything in Notepad and create my own graphics. I learned how to do a lot of things by reading other people’s HTML source codes. On AOL, I went through different screen names, from cHiNkBeBe52 to Azn66girly to bamboo6irl. I eventually picked up the nickname “Peachies” because I would always buy a bag of Trolli gummy peach rings and share them with my friends. This name stuck and went on to become my online persona.

In college, my online persona took on a personality of its own after I started blogging about Asian American films, music, events, etc. This all started after I took an Intro to Asian American Studies class at UC Santa Cruz. This class changed my life. I started to become passionate about raising the Asian American voice in mainstream media. I wanted to make a difference, so I started joining grassroots movements within the Asian American community, blogging avidly on Xanga.com regarding Asian American moves in media, and connecting with like-minded individuals.

I credit Judy Yung, BETTER LUCK TOMORROW, Evan Jackson Leong, L.S. Kim, and a band called Nemo for inspiring me to follow this path.

To be continued…